Travel Junkie

With January being Trey’s Birthday month then March being the month Trey was called home to be with God I have learned that my faith is what will bring me through these next few months. I’m so blessed to have such a wonderful tribe that is so supportive. I’m doing a new adventure every month and I know he is smiling. Trey was the ultimate adventurer always exploring parts of this wonderful world. One day we will be united and oh the stories we will tell. My strength comes from the cross. My heart goes out to anyone grieving the loss of a child💔#broken #GodsPlan #faith #forever31 #son #brother #husband #uncle #family #missed #travel #heaven (at Cozumel, Quintana Roo - Mexico)
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Day 2 Cozumel this was what I woke up to see from my bedroom window. Yesterday was a very long day as Birkin and I had been travelling for 48 hours. I managed to unpack our things last night. Today I will wander the island, go to gather supplies and so forth. Let the adventure begin #GodsPlan #travel #cozumeldays #sunshineandrainbows☀️🌈 #happy (at Cozumel, Mexico)
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From the moment you took your first breath (and may I add you were a 42 week and 2 day baby who decided to make your entrance on a snowy day in Nashville while your Dad was out of town on a business trip and your Granny drove me to Vanderbilt ) you had this look of wonder and curiosity about you. Everything you did in your short 31 years you did to the fullest. You lived life on your terms, with laughter, happiness and a smile that lite up a room. You loved all things people and travel. You loved sports so much that once you went after a pop fly ball caught it and collided with a fence slashing your head open. You asked the coach can I just finish the game I will get stitches after the game is over…still protesting you were fine as your Father escorted you off the field to the ER. The best part of you was your heart you always gave to others even when you had little. After you sudden passing as word spread through social media reaching friends you had made abroad on your many travels I heard from so many of your friends. They told me stories of how you met. Some you spent only a day with others you would meet up with months or years later for another adventure. When you married Alex you truly married your soul mate as she is just like you, free, adventurous, kind and has a sweet calming spirit about her. For now sweet Trey we remember you and all the wonderful happy times you smiled that big smile, lite up a room and made me the proudest mother I could ever be. I love you forever, I like you for always forever and ever my baby you will be…explore all the gates of Heaven until we can meet and share our adventures again💔🙏#2yearsinheaven
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I woke up this morning to the reality that on March 31 you will have been gone a year. A year of grief, loss, tears and change. Grief changes people from deep within their bones. Grief became a part of my reality my new life without my son. I realized I had to make a place for grief sort of like a room for it to live. I can visit that room and sit in it as much as I need too but what I won’t do is move into that room. I miss Trey every second of everyday but I know that with every fiber of my being Trey would not want me to move into that room of grief and reside. Grief doesn’t move out it stays with you forever but so do the wonderful memories that decorate that room I have created. I visit that room everyday and smile for the happiness Trey brought us on his time on earth. I sometimes pick up my phone and check my WhatsApp for a update from him and then I remember he’s not traveling the world he is traveling all through heaven. So on March 31 my sweet boy I will celebrate and cry for you. I celebrate because you gave me so much joy, laughter, tears and love along with wonderful memories. I will cry because my heart is broken and I miss you. God called you home because he had plans for you in Heaven. I love you forever, I like you for always forever and ever my baby you will be..#gonetoosoon💔 #forever31 #heaven #oneyearanniversary3/31 #mom #son #brother #loss #grief #GodsPlan (at The Bramblewood Cottage)
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This week was extra hard really hard. I struggled as it seems everywhere I am there you are gentle reminders in strange places you are watching from Heaven. After Trey passed a friend send me a backpack of a few things he had left at their house in SF before going abroad again the last time. Inside a BART card ( SF transit system) overalls splatter with paint, a t shirt and an red orange feather. The feather is now on a table in my office at home so I can see it daily. Yesterday I had a procedure at our local hospital, had to wear the hospital gown and cute yellow socks. As they went to move me to the operating table my friend who is a nurse said “oh you have something on your gown” I looked and (no I hadn’t gotten the happy drugs yet) and I saw a part of the feather. Trey was there with me. God’s plan was bigger than our plans so now we are left with pictures and memories that play like a movie reel over and over in my head. You have been gone 570 days 8 hours snd 1 minute but it feels like yesterday. Still the tears along with a smile come when I hear a Grateful Dead song or I wear my Wu Tang Clan shirt and know he much loved it. I choose this picture today because you were smiling and all seemed right with the world. Rest high on that mountain until we all meet again. I love you forever, I like you for always forever and ever my baby you will be. #gonetoosoon #chatbooks #myangel #31yearsyoung #Godsplan #husband #son #brother #uncle #fashiononashoestring (at The Bramblewood Cottage)
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I can’t believe you have been gone 471 Days . We had so many plans, places to meet on your journeys. I remember 7 years ago today you called and were Stateside for a few days and would be passing through LA. You said I can’t stay as I’m headed back up to SF but could you meet me for coffee and a hug…wouldn’t I give for coffee and a hug from you my sweet Trey. I can’t believe there will be no more holidays with you, no more texts or calls nothing. You were called home so suddenly there was no goodbye only shock, tears, anger but most of all questions? What happened to you that night? Why did God call you home? So many questions there will never be answers for only that God needed you in Heaven. Rest In Peace my love and know your sister, your nephew ( who by the way will start high school in the fall) and your wife are always my priority. I love you forever, I like you for always forever and ever my baby you will be #loss #child #son #husband #brother #AngelWings #takentosoon #GodsPlan #questions #fashiononashoestring (at Nashville, Tennessee)
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I woke up this morning to the reality that on March 31 you will have been gone a year. A year of grief, loss, tears and change. Grief changes people from deep within their bones. Grief became a part of my reality my new life without my son. I realized I had to make a place for grief sort of like a room for it to live. I can visit that room and sit in it as much as I need too but what I won’t do is move into that room. I miss Trey every second of everyday but I know that with every fiber of my being Trey would not want me to move into that room of grief snd stay. Grief doesn’t move out it stays with you forever but so do the wonderful memories that decorate that room I have created. I visit that room everyday and smile for the happiness Trey brought us on his tone on earth. I sometimes pick up my phone and check my WhatsApp for a update from him and then I remember he’s not traveling the world he is traveling all through heaven. So on March 31 my sweet boy I will celebrate and cry for you. I celebrate because you gave me so much joy, laughter, tears and love along with wonderful memories. I will cry because my heart is broken and I miss you. God called you home because he had plans for you in Heaven. I love you forever, I like you for always forever and ever my baby you will be..#gonetoosoon💔 #forever31 #heaven #oneyearanniversary3/31 #mom #son #brother #loss #grief #GodsPlan #fashiononashoestring
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It’s blooming just in time for what would have been Trey’s 32 birthday on Sunday. He will spend his first heavenly birthday with God. I through all of the sadness snd grief of 2020 and the start of 2021 I learned a hard lesson. The lesson I learned no matter what always Praise him in the storm. God has a plan even though it may not be my plan. My forever#31 you are so missed. #gonetoosoon #son #brother #uncle #pandemic #godsplan #fashiononashoestring (at The Blackberry Cottage)
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Today was hard really hard I struggled as I shuffled through hundreds of pictures that represented only a portion of your beautiful life. I carefully choose the ones I felt would bring peace and comfort to your Father, your sweet widow Alex, your Granny, your Meme and you biggest fan your sister. I can’t believe it’s been 206 days since you gained your wings that morning of March 31,2020. God’s plan was bigger than our plans so now we are left with pictures and memories that play like a movie reel over and over in my head. I still can’t stop the tears when I hear a Grateful Dead song and I wear my Wu Tang Clan shirt and know you would have loved it. I choose this picture today because you were smiling and all seemed right with the world. Rest high on that mountain until we all meet again. I love you forever, I like you for always forever and ever my baby you will be. #gonetoosoon #chatbooks #myangel #31yearsyoung #Godsplan #husband #son #brother #uncle #fashiononashoestring
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188 days today since God called you home. A day never passes that I don’t think of your giant smile, your carefree spirit and your love of all things travel. I miss you my sweet Trey I hope you are exploring all the wonderful parts of Heaven. #husband #son #brother #uncle #travel #smile #GodsPlan #angel #gonetoosoon #fashiononashoestring (at Switzerland)
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